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Wednesday, July 15, 2009

*-Frequent posting on my blog-*

I guess i am too free that i am starting to blog more frequently. I dont know why but it is simply too tired of working. Why dont i feel happy at all? Me realli thinking too much which makes me unhappy. Not thinking of stupid things but in fact lazy to get things done. I do have a lot of work especially radio work to do. But, i am simply too tired and hack-care.

Completely losing the hope and love for radio. Why am i suppose to do now?!!!?!?!?!?!?!?

Only when i am alone or no one to talk to, i will think of finding you. But, you will only treat me as invisible. Maybe i did not exist before. Cant i get some care and concern from someon?! why am i so irritating and unhappy? <<>>

2:06:00 PM;

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

*-Going back to do Radio work-*

Everything is over. My event has been completely done last friday. I felt a bit lost now becos i dont know what i shld do. Kinda of lost my direction of life. haha. Me need to find a new direction already.

Bernice gave me a new nickname: "A girl who cannot take out her contact lens". Yes, i couldnt take out my contact lens and had to see a doctor to confirm that the lens did fall out itself. My mother was so worried that she kept calling me to ask if i have any needle-pinning feeling in my left eye. And thinking of operation again, i will kill myself. Thank goodness, the len fell out lor.

Me went to help out commencement the next day after Graduates' Night. Saw my friends graduated was rather happy yet worried. One and a half year more, will my parents be proud of me? Did i ever have any achievements?

This is going to be my last month at work. I think i got a feel of what auditing is about but more need to be done on my part. Need to study hard and know my accounting knowledge by hard (heart). A lot of things do require your own knowledge as well as your intitative. Now, i really wonder if i should even take up audit as my future job after taking to my manager. she already concluded that audit job is not suitable for me which i agree too.

Then what kind of job is suitable for me? Can i ever find a job i truely like? I Feel that i am too nosiy and slacking too much. Need to work hard and stop falling asleep at work. Felt so bored and nothing can be as bad as NOW! hack it lah. I will be gone soon. hehehe :)

I am gonna say this but i dont feel like doing any radio work. My passion and energy which i used to have seems to have been gone. But, definitely not going to the extent that i feel that this is a burden to me. And a few more weeks, i have to go back to school and faced those exam and grade pressure. I doubt i can even graduate with a cum laude.

One word to describe my life NOW! SUCK!

2:41:00 PM;

Friday, July 03, 2009

*-Day at work-*

Time to start blogging again. This week is chaotic. I am down with flu and cough for many days and also vomiting for a week. But, the weird thing is that i am not losing weight at all. In fact, i am getting fatter. I think it is the after-effect of sitting in the office and not working hard enough.

Anyway, if you are wondering why am i writing my blog is because my colleague does love to read my blog on all those emo things and story he can find. haha ~~ PS: he is gonna kill me for this! :)

Things are not getting better for me. When i am alone, my brain simply does not function and let my heart takes charge. When my heart actually does so, tears start to flow. Six months had passed and i tot my life will be back on track but i guess i was wrong. Hopefully, in a few more weeks time, it will.

Life is like a train. And a love life is just like making the train of yours stopped. Imagine a person standing on the track to stop the train. If he is so little in your life, then the train wont stopped but move on until it reaches the end of the track.

每个人活着的意义都不一样。

你有想过你生活的意义吗？

At 4.30pm:

Someone ask me whether a moving train is better or a non-moving one is better.

Well, to me i feel that a moving train is better as it has once stopped and only if the next person who is really deserving for me to stop then maybe it will stop. My life is filled with a lot of goals which i set for myself. So, my train has to continue moving or i will not be able to go round all my designated destination. My train is definitely tired of stopping for any stones placed on the track.

What do you think of yours? Shld your train be the one moving and going round the world. Or shld it be non-moving?

爱是什么？我不知道也不想明白!

3:24:00 PM;