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Saturday, September 27, 2008

*-Emo? Mimo? Memo?-*

today was a bit emotional for me. Things weren't as smooth-sailing as i expected. I expected to lead a lonely and peaceful life but now, i doubt it is possible. Today, i think i cried like 2 times and maybe it was just my tears machine in me which is trying to make sure that it works. Okokokay !! I think i am talking rubbish.

I have been very emotional and easily affected by what is happening in my life. Why?

My study is something i am worried about and it is not that i don't study but i just cannot absorb or i don't have the mood. My parents are not trusting me and believe that i am flirting around. But i am not !!!

I am very serious with my work. Meeting are important and he is important as well.

There is a lot of things which is affecting me now.
1. My study - i am not doing that well - far away from my expectations
2. Shld i be in a relationship? - My parents are giving me lots of pressure and forcing me to do something which i dun want to. What should i do? I really don't know
3. Am i useless? AM i a lousy? --> i guess this is me going to my next phase of life.

A girl turning 20 is having future plans or wanting to try on things. However, given the current circumstances (Strong supervision and control from my mum), not confidence about whether i can try them !!!

11:57:00 PM;

Sunday, September 21, 2008

*-No mood-*

I wasn't in the mood to blog but i have to !!

She just left Singapore. Who is she? She is Claudia Koh. I was not really sad about it but just felt that times flies. She just came back and now she is leaving.

The few of us went to send her off at 11.29pm. This time we waited till she entered the departure area. It was quite sad but i think i am used to it that she is leaving for UK. Last few months was Sydney and now UK.

Claudia: You better be back soon !!! we wait for you for 3 months

So bored and don't feel like doing work. Got lots of quiz coming up but just don't have the mood.

Shld i sleep or continue to study? *thinking very hard*

1:49:00 AM;

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

*-Live Radio @ Concourse-*

Today was the LIVE RADIO for Campus radio at the concourse and it was my first time hosting a show with AMIE with so many people looking at me. It was super nervous for me and i don't really know what to talk about. Although i am speaking in mandarin, i feel that no one is actually listen to me and AMIE talking. At some point of time, just feel that we are talking to the AIR. Since today was the first time outdoor, i was super nervous until i can't eat anything. I was certainly aware that anything i eat at that point of time, i will just vomit out.

SO BETTER NOT WASTE FOOD AND MONEY.

I was very nervous and AMIE had to remind me constantly to relax. The first time i spoke into the mic, i nearly stabbed myself with a knife. It was not something i normally do in the studio because those times where i did my recordings, there was NO ONE there but now everyone was looking. Then the only word that came into my mind was 'RELAX'. I kept moving around and playing with my hair, then i thought of what my prof said in MPW. When you are nervous, you tend to move or even play with your hair. Sometime, YOU may not be aware of it. After which, i kept my hands to myself or simply held my best friend, THE MIC.

This was indeed my first time Deejaying in school and it was a great experience. I will want to do it more often as it will be a good exposure for me. This is my passion and i will want to do the best out of it.

As many of you know, SMU is well-known for its diverse culture as well as something called Class participation. In some modules, Class participation, known as Class Part, has a certain amount of weightage on your final grade. This encourages students to speak up but the disadvantage is that it is very subjective and hard to valuate.

Today, i finally speak up in my audit class because i prepared for the case study and i managed to give some relevant points. Usually, i won't read up beforehand but now i realize that it is important to do so and NECESSARY for the desired grade you aim for.

Also, i need to study hard because i got a quiz for MA next wednesday. HOW? I haven complete it.... "CUI CUI"

Quoting from MR Anthony chang: "We need to study smart now."

11:26:00 PM;