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U@shine 4th July: Street Magic

2010-07-05T10:52:00.000+08:00

Have you seen "CLOSE-UP" Magic?

I Did and was amazed by the street magicians and mentalist.

They are just freaking me out !!! Met A few friends on Facebook and if you want to catch more street Magic, you can go tohttp://streetmagicsingapore.blogspot.com/

Below are photos taken at U@Shine on 4th July at Plaza Sing. You may have caught them in action on the street !!!!

Monday 09 Nov 2009, 下雨天

2009-11-10T00:00:00.002+08:00

今天，我又听到他的消息。我以为他不会再引响我的生命，但是我错了。他还是。。。。。

我一听到有关他的消息，我就会想到他的存在。我不是真正的快乐。

如果有一天我看到你的话，我不知道我会如何！

每一天，我不知道我到底是不是真正的快乐。

我再也不认识我自己，我到底是谁！

2009-11-02T18:04:00.002+08:00

I am writing this blog while i am having my corporate advisory class. i am trying to listen but i am having a headache. Gosh, it took me ages to blog about my life now.

I went to HK on my study break which i am supposed to be mugging for my exam but i went away. My group members were in the midst to kill me for disappearing from SG. But, the trip was okay only cos there was a slight drama happened. My parents are simply too tired to walk further and thus, we did not go to too many places but instead just stay in the city. Never buy a lot of clothings - no more new collection for now. But, i will find other things to sell. Check out my fun moments in HK.

2009-08-31T16:04:00.002+08:00

VISIT SUMMERFASHION.LIVEJOURNAL.COM

2009-08-04T10:25:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday to my beloved dear - Joyce guo......

i-promise unite !?!?!?!?!

Frequent posting on my blog

2009-07-15T14:06:00.002+08:00

I guess i am too free that i am starting to blog more frequently. I dont know why but it is simply too tired of working. Why dont i feel happy at all? Me realli thinking too much which makes me unhappy. Not thinking of stupid things but in fact lazy to get things done. I do have a lot of work especially radio work to do. But, i am simply too tired and hack-care.

Completely losing the hope and love for radio. Why am i suppose to do now?!!!?!?!?!?!?!?

Only when i am alone or no one to talk to, i will think of finding you. But, you will only treat me as invisible. Maybe i did not exist before. Cant i get some care and concern from someon?! why am i so irritating and unhappy? <<>>

Going back to do Radio work

2009-07-14T14:41:00.005+08:00

Everything is over. My event has been completely done last friday. I felt a bit lost now becos i dont know what i shld do. Kinda of lost my direction of life. haha. Me need to find a new direction already.

Bernice gave me a new nickname: "A girl who cannot take out her contact lens". Yes, i couldnt take out my contact lens and had to see a doctor to confirm that the lens did fall out itself. My mother was so worried that she kept calling me to ask if i have any needle-pinning feeling in my left eye. And thinking of operation again, i will kill myself. Thank goodness, the len fell out lor.

Me went to help out commencement the next day after Graduates' Night. Saw my friends graduated was rather happy yet worried. One and a half year more, will my parents be proud of me? Did i ever have any achievements?

This is going to be my last month at work. I think i got a feel of what auditing is about but more need to be done on my part. Need to study hard and know my accounting knowledge by hard (heart). A lot of things do require your own knowledge as well as your intitative. Now, i really wonder if i should even take up audit as my future job after taking to my manager. she already concluded that audit job is not suitable for me which i agree too.

Then what kind of job is suitable for me? Can i ever find a job i truely like? I Feel that i am too nosiy and slacking too much. Need to work hard and stop falling asleep at work. Felt so bored and nothing can be as bad as NOW! hack it lah. I will be gone soon. hehehe :)

I am gonna say this but i dont feel like doing any radio work. My passion and energy which i used to have seems to have been gone. But, definitely not going to the extent that i feel that this is a burden to me. And a few more weeks, i have to go back to school and faced those exam and grade pressure. I doubt i can even graduate with a cum laude.

One word to describe my life NOW! SUCK!

Day at work

2009-07-03T15:24:00.005+08:00

Time to start blogging again. This week is chaotic. I am down with flu and cough for many days and also vomiting for a week. But, the weird thing is that i am not losing weight at all. In fact, i am getting fatter. I think it is the after-effect of sitting in the office and not working hard enough.

Anyway, if you are wondering why am i writing my blog is because my colleague does love to read my blog on all those emo things and story he can find. haha ~~ PS: he is gonna kill me for this! :)

Things are not getting better for me. When i am alone, my brain simply does not function and let my heart takes charge. When my heart actually does so, tears start to flow. Six months had passed and i tot my life will be back on track but i guess i was wrong. Hopefully, in a few more weeks time, it will.

Life is like a train. And a love life is just like making the train of yours stopped. Imagine a person standing on the track to stop the train. If he is so little in your life, then the train wont stopped but move on until it reaches the end of the track.

每个人活着的意义都不一样。

你有想过你生活的意义吗？

At 4.30pm:

Someone ask me whether a moving train is better or a non-moving one is better.

Well, to me i feel that a moving train is better as it has once stopped and only if the next person who is really deserving for me to stop then maybe it will stop. My life is filled with a lot of goals which i set for myself. So, my train has to continue moving or i will not be able to go round all my designated destination. My train is definitely tired of stopping for any stones placed on the track.

What do you think of yours? Shld your train be the one moving and going round the world. Or shld it be non-moving?

爱是什么？我不知道也不想明白!

Words that make me think

2009-06-23T17:22:00.007+08:00

有人常常说：“男追女隔成山，女追男隔成纱。”

你会不会相信这句话？

我和他现在都生活在不同的世界，

是永远不可能在一起。

偶然的相遇是上天的按排，还是不巧而遇。

它要我明白他的存在，而要我知道两个生活在不同的

世界的人是不会幸福的。

我希望他永远开开心心。要找到你心目中的理想情人。

永远会想你！

My internship experience!

2009-06-15T14:14:00.001+08:00

My internship experience!

Weekend

2009-06-15T14:04:00.002+08:00

Once again, i started to blog after so many months. I am busy with my internship at an small audit firm with nice people here. Got lots of time surfing the net while re-capping all the FRS and company act i have learnt previously. and then, we have our time off in office eating cup noodle while Jen abandoned us. *sob sob*

Our seniors are very nice people cos i admired their patience in trying to teach the weirdo --> me! Although i picked up things quite quickly, i think i also spend a lot of time mingling around not doing anything. hahahahha.

working will make me rmb people whom i last met at pacnet and DBS bank. My eating partner, my cindy club. all those times are the happiness days of my working experience. Hope this will be as fun as well. (I am enjoying the time we wait for 6pm to knock off)

My weekend was full of rubbish. Saturday, i took up my courage to go for the "One million Star PK Challenger". Although, i never get in, i still feel very happy cos i had the courage to go for it. This made me more determined to learn singing lol.

First time hosting a big event was scary yet happy that i manage to cure my stage fright. Charlotte, thank you for being there for me! You are the best! If you have been part of singapore street fest - bellydance competition, you should have seen me! My stupid way of asking for drum round. However, i am grateful that Ivee and people in street fest for giving me the chance to host for such event. A BIG THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU!!!!!

*Still missing him occassionally* (this is a good sign)

I love my family. This week is Father's day... happy father's day!

First blog after so long

2009-05-06T23:10:00.002+08:00

I decided to make my first attempt to blog again after so long. I guess Claudia will want to know how i have been doing lately.

Last Sunday, it wasnt a family day for the people who came to find me. We went to Sentosa to sun-tan. We had lots of fun playing volleyball (except i cant hit the ball). My Husband (Bernice) and I had a fun time except she ran away with Amanda for quite a long while. We had fun from 12 to 5pm. Phototaking using phones. Some people staying in the water for long long while till they neARLY freeze.

Everyone was like lobster and their skin was peeling lol. Kit said that me and richard like 'kena burnt like that'. Wait till she sees kelv cen!!!

I dont know why but i dont seem to be as happy as before. Why is it so? Is it because of myself? Grades?

I had a very long reflection time for myself. Tot abt my life and definitely wondered if i have wasted my 21 years.

I still rmb someone once said that i am a person who treasure love and maybe not forget about my past relationship. Am i like that?

Amazed by China

2009-03-02T00:57:00.002+08:00

I was watching discovery channel today and happened to watch a segment known as "Hour China" (Should be this). Well, i cant believe my eyes about the private schools in China on disciplining your kids who are rebellious during their teenage life. Their parents were unable to control or monitor their behaviors and had to result to the last resort which was to send them to this special school.

This special schools aim to be their teachers as well as their parents. They taught them through strict disciplinary actions and army style of training. You must be wondering how they did it?

The children are enrolled to this school for a year and cannot have any forms of contact with their parents. Every chores from washing to folding their daily clothes are done by themselves. Most of their time were spent travelling on huge army vehicles. Their headmaster also train their endurance by bringing them to walk 41km under 41 degree heat. Many had to simply follow the instructions given. Those who graduated would have walked at least 1,000km or more during their enrollment in this school.

Such training had not only train them mentally but also made them understand their wrongdoings such as how they should treat their parents, should they play computers games and neglect study. During the walk, they are able to think of what should be the correct actions to be done.

Is it ethical for parents to do so? Parents argued that they have no choice given the china's one child policy. They said if they have 2 children and one of them are so rebellious, they will devote their attention to the other kids instead. With no choice, they had to use all kinds of way to make sure that their child have a bright future ahead. Early discipline is then necessary.

However, i still cannot understand if it is actually parents' responsibility to take care or discipline their kids. What does it mean when parents simply put their child into this kinds of special school when they had no choice?

Is it indeed reasonable or forgiving for your parents to do so to you?

council gathering in facebook :)

2009-03-01T03:34:00.000+08:00

The council pictures !! Amazing council gathering in facebook :)

Emotions?

2009-03-01T03:12:00.002+08:00

Life still move on. The earth wont stop revolving when everything in your life did change. Today was really irritating. All my mum's faults.

Well, my mum knew about my ex-boyfriend. And now i know what is the reason, she "stole" the letter that he gave it to me. The worst is that she actually denied that she stole it and insisted that she found them while packing my room. BULLSHITS!!

She was scolding me "stupid" to believe the sweet-talks that was written in the letter. She also deliberately show it to my brother and sister. She din want to return to me. I was really pissed with her and decided not to talk to her for that moment. Why must things be like that? I really just want to forget and when i want to, something related to him will appear.

One day, i saw him on the train when i was snoring on the train. When i opened my eyes, i saw someone really familiar and then, it was him right in front of me. *praying hard* i hope he din see me at all. Honestly, i was damm useless. I din have the courage to look at him nor walk to him to say hi. I looked elsewhere and walked slowly behind him. Not sure if he did notice but it doesn't really matter. This matter did affect my feelings as i simply feel like a loser.

I talked to Da shu and Claudia about it, they just say it takes time. How long do i need? How can i still have that feelings for him? I should have forgotten him and move on with my life.

Why am i so studdorn?
Why am i so persistant?
Why am i so silly?
Why am i so stupid?
Why am i so irritating?

All these questions were posed to me but who can tell me why?

PS: No matter how hard i try, you are still the one i love the most..

How did I spend my Valentine?

2009-02-15T19:50:00.003+08:00

How did i spend my Valentine?

Someone once told me that Valentine day is a day you spend with someone you truly love. Yup, this is absolutely correct.

I went to watch a movie during Valentine Day. The movie featuring Brad Pitt: "The curious case of Benjamin Button.

This movie is about 2 hour and 45 minutes. The story is about the life of Benjamin Button on how he led his life when he was born under unusual circumstances. It is about a man who is born in his eighties and ages backward. His physical appearance and his actual age does not matched at all. He was lucky to met some kind soul who took care of him despite his appearance. Everyone feels that he was weird but how he manages to live and met someone he truly love is what you really need to know.

I had this feeling after i watched this movie: "Treasure whatever you have and whoever you meet." You will never know what will happen next. Time will never go backward unless you find the ultimate time machine.

I am so upset with you

2009-02-13T00:51:00.002+08:00

I was so upset with my best friend. She says she trust me ingeneral but she just don't want to tell me. I knew her for more than 6 years and now, she said this to me! I need to cry for 6 days to forget our 6 years friendship. I am absolutely sad with you.

You better say one million times sorry when you come back or i will hate you forever (which you know i wont)!!

Don't ever say this to me again!

1. I can't let my guard down.
2. Sorry, i can't trust you for this.

Don't let me hear this again ! I will send a knife to UK then you kill yourself first !! :)

emo days are gone !

2009-02-05T08:52:00.002+08:00

Heyo, time for me to blog. hee, i am writing this blog during my CAT class. I am so tired that i cannot concentrate anymore. Slept at 4am to just finish my CAT assignment. Mid-term is coming but i am not even prepared !!

I am so sleepy !!!

that day, i had a heart-to-heart with amie !! IT has been so long since i spoke with her. She asked me about my life and how i am coping things. Well, i guess something which she said to me is rather true, "it will take time, you will never forget what happen."

I think i am not rushing things but forgetting is actually a important skill for me to learn.

one thing she realize about me is that i really grew up and became more matured. Really know how to take things slowly and managed to organize myself better. It is still not prefect but i guess 'she maybe right'.

Many people have told me that this:"Cindy, did something happen? You are very different now."

hahahah !!! AM I????

Tracy's saying:"Love is a choice." (i totally agreed with this !!! )

The Show - LENKA

2009-02-04T00:51:00.003+08:00

I love this Song !!!

Need a Mouse For CAT?

2009-02-01T02:24:00.004+08:00

I bought a new mouse to do CAT. CAT as in my module called computer as an analysis tool. It is basically learning to use the function of excel. It was not as easy as i thought and now i am struggling because i never listen in class !!!

The assignment questions are terrible and indeed causing my headache !!

Today was supposed to be fun but then i end up sleeping at my auntie house because i was bored to sleep. Sianz !!!

Stupid cousin of mine accused me of playing that 'kissing game'. I was not sure if it was my idea cos i was half-drunk and really can't remember what happen. What i know was that i suggested to lick feet and not 'kissing'.

Why am i becoming so crazy?

I came out with a function while doing excel...

=IF(you= "truly love and care someone" ,"you can never forget him", "you cheated on him")

:) hahahahahaha

我好想你，不管你知不知道啦！

Me was watching 篮球火 today.

元大鹰说：“爱一个人，不一定要拥有他。

只要他幸福快乐就好了!"

这句话真是让我好感动!!!

My show 音乐 pandora

2009-01-29T11:20:00.005+08:00

My Show will air every Thursday 9 - 10pm 音乐 PANDORA.

THIS WEEK

我们要介绍几部合岁电影！！！

一定要听哦！！！：）

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New Year

2009-01-28T01:54:00.003+08:00

This year Chinese new year came rather fast and early. Din really have time to get all my clothes and shoes. My mum finally says that i became more ladylike cos i bought a dress to wear, no more black and white in my wardrobe. First day of Chinese new year is damm stupid. My dad wants to avoid the long queue at the temple so we woke up at 3am to head toward the temple. Guess what?? One of the temples we supposed to go was not opened at all. We had to head home and then come out to pray at 11am. Very tiring for all of us. Really got tricked by my dad. He never checked what time the temple open lol. Haiz my brother was nagging about it non-stop. After which, we spent our afternn at my auntie's house but what i did there was sleeping and watching tv.

2nd day became more exciting... I had buffet at my house and was high with alcohol. Drank a lot and was playing the most stupid games on earth - "Scissors, paper stone" The penalty of this game is that 2 losers will have to kiss the chosen body part. Like forehead or face or rubbing nose together. We were laughing non-stop and happy to see guys do it together. I had to do it with my cousin's boyfriend - ah ben. Hope Linda don't kill me !!! Don't worry, i am not interested.. Haha.. Kissing game is super ridiculous but definitely can kill time. We were screaming and giggling all the way. Thank god my neighbour never complain us !!!

All my cousins are attached and bought their boyfriend along. The feeling is damm weird and somtimes really miss him so much. Well, don't think i am wanting him back. But, it is just hard to forget. Sometime i wonder if i got together with him just becos i desired the feeling of getting attached. I guess i did love him but all these do not matter anymore. My feelings are buried deep deep.

Honk !!!

2009-01-25T02:06:00.002+08:00

Honk was a very good musical with simple plot but great music and singer. If you have missed it, you really will regret. I nearly cried becos i was really touched by the scene of mother duck looking for the ugly duck.

I was there to learn filming and i guess nothing is hard then accounting. I learnt rather fast and i guess this is because of my great teachers hwei fen and derek.

A part of Honk!

"Different isn't naughty"

Before going for honk, i met with the FTB organizing com. Lynette, Stanley, Jethro, Tracy, Andrew, Pei Mun, Nayeem were there AT komolas. We had a lot of fun talking. Andrew made a bet with me that within one year, i will find another boyfriend. If i do, i have to treat him. If i don't then he will treat me. I told him firmly that i will win this bet !!! Relationship is really out of my concern and i don't think i should have another one. Time will heal me soon !!! Being alone is great as i definitely can find time for myself.

I don't knw why but i just feel like dressing up nowadays. Tracy said that i should dress up cos you are attached with a guy. Not the other way !!!

Well, i am different !!!

Hhahah !!! Andrew, u will owe me the treat !!!

after the lunch, stanley, lynette, tracy and andrew headed to Vivo city to shop. I bought a top from forever 21 at 7 dollars. Shopping with them is fun, we must go and shop together. Nxt time must chio me along !!!

FTB Convocation video - those fun days

2009-01-21T01:45:00.001+08:00

i am a loser

2009-01-16T01:30:00.002+08:00

I feel like a loser. I suck i suck !!! I must be independent since he already don't love you anymore. wake up, stop dreaming.

I thought that i can be very forgetful and simply forget about the relationship with him.

I came across this quote which made me felt rather emo for that moment only.

"If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day so I never have to live without you"

Very meaningful quote. I am still a human being and no cold-blooded at all. i cannot treat as though nothing happen at all. I want to delete everything about you but my memory is not a computer. Formatting it does not function or even work.

Cindy T asked me:"if one day he asks you to come back, will u?"

i thought about it but i simply answer her. "i know him very well, once he decided that this is not something he wants, he will nv return."

"So why bother about it????"

i hate myself now !!! Study hard and don't think about it.

Why do i feel so hurt?

2008-12-15T01:02:00.002+08:00

I am not sure why but sometimes I felt damm hurt whenever i think about the things we went through.

I must tell myself to stop thinking about him, tell myself that he needs the space.

Now, i understand the things that others used to tell me. Whenever you hold something too tightly, the easier for you to lose it. I guess i was very afraid of losing him and did not trust him at all. No sense of security and being very paranoid were the reason i lost him.

Honestly, you are the person who made me realize that i can like someone - be it guy or girl (hehehe) again. I really hope to get u back but if i can't i hope that you can find someone better that can give you a proper relationship.

Sorry that i can't give you the sense of love and security!!!

Every time someone ask about you, i will try to ignore but my heart hurt badly before i could realize it. I don't think you will ever see this post cos you seldom read my 'broken English' blog.

Thanks for everything you gave me. I think i can never find someone better than you.

If you finally can accept the differences we have, i promise that this time will be a better me!!!

My mundane life

2008-12-14T23:59:00.004+08:00

Today, i went to watch the day the earth stood still with a batch of friends. Delphine, Febs, Andrew, Danson and lynette. This is supposedly a FTB gathering but the turn out wasnt great.

I will rate the movie 2 out of 5 stars as there was too little action and the plot was too expected and common. I expected more commotion but then really disappointing. I guess like what andrew says the best part of the movie is already captured in the trailer.. Sob sob..

Our next movie will be "BOLT" in 3D. Damm cool to watch the cute movie with glasses on !!! Someone organize leh

Dinner at ichiban sushi (i think it is spelled like this). Anyway, nayeem (who want ppl to date him cos he is damm bored at home) came out and saw us ate raw salmon... He was like "WHAT THIS IS RAW" hahaha !!! Next time, we will force him to try one !!!!

The food was great. After which, we talked about our memories in FTB for almost an hour. Chit-chatting non-stop from movies to ftb to SA to BE !! Everything that we have in common !! Can't wait to meet the rest as well....

Thanks for those who came for the gathering --> i knw i am bad at organizing this!!!

Upset with my life

2008-12-06T22:18:00.002+08:00

I was alone today and no one can go dinner with me. So, i went to times and came across this book called rule of love. I browsed the book and happened to read this page about differences in a relationship. The book said that differences are healthy and should be accepted. In a relationship, you wont want to date someone who is similar as it is something like dating a clone. Weird rite??? So, with differences, you get to learn about how to accept the differences both party have.

In a relationship, it should work like a partnership. Be there for each other...

Damm sad with my grade.. I suck!!!

Time for me to blog

2008-11-26T23:00:00.002+08:00

Finally, i have some spare time for me to blog. This week is really tough as it is my examinations week. 4 exams including Income Tax, Management accounting, MPW and Audit. I am damm scared with audit as i am not even half way there. How? MPW, omg, so many readings to do !!!

I just finished income tax on monday and today was management accounting --> i think i got killed multiple times. After my paper today, my brain started to function weirdly. Why i say so? Cos Chiu yan said that i was behaving weirdly and i also think so. Not sure what happen to me but simply needed some crazy moment. Cindy Teo, my other good friend was damm stressed up with management accounting paper. Here is something for cindy: " Forget about it and study hard for the rest of the paper. Aim for A- for audit!!!!" Just this semster, i feel that i am really dying cos the accounting stuff are super technical and mentally draining for me.

Pray hard for me and i can graduate soon !!! Wish me all the best for the other 2 papers

I haven plan out my schedule to enjoy the next 4 weeks before the semster starts again. Hopefully, i can meet up with Joyce G+i-promise gang and my Jc friend --> Liyana, You mei, Wenqi and Claudia (u better come back soon and rmb to sms me!!!), Phoebe

I will end off with something i see today. I saw 2 primary 6 girls trying to get a card out of the gap in between the MRT seat. Imagine that you are there.. The scene is really super weird and funny !!! I was laughing non-stop.

My day is ruined

2008-11-10T12:26:00.002+08:00

This few weeks of my life is definitely draining my brain a lot. I am dying of a illness called, "hateschoolhateexamhateclasshatemylife". If you don't know what i am saying, it is just hate everything that is happening. Exams are round the corner for me and it is really burning me alive.

I felt rather sad that i have to miss the birthday party last Saturday (*Sorry Joyce Chang and my i-promise gang) and felt guilty for not blogging for weeks. Now, i am stucked in a meeting while trying to blog. "Wink wink" Don't tell my group members about it !!!

Today, i started to tell my mum what i want to do in the future. She was damm shocked that i have such a thought. I told her that i want to set up my own business as a wedding planner aka any events planner. This is something which i hope to set up but then now i got no capital or network in the market.

Tell you something: I finally stepped down as AVTS director of SMUBE but but but i Stepped up as Programming music director for BE. So ironic rite???

gahahahahha Wanna know why? Because i dun want other people to live the uni life as boring as it is. I want to have some colours and life to it !!! That's the reason why i am in SMUBE..

Something so different to my school life. Sometimes i hate it but sometimes i love it !!!

Life is in a mess for me !!

My biggest worries

2008-10-19T17:33:00.005+08:00

Saturday, i had the longest and most mentally draining meeting in school... 7 hours of audit was really killing me ...

We have to present this coming Wednesday and have to discuss on the slides. And audit is something which required 100% plus 100% reading and lots of "smart juice" in your brain. Really after the meeting, i started to have headache and super tired.

Worst still, my nose is blocked and i cannot hear clearly !!!

My biggest worries now:

1. I did not do well for my midterm and i am going to die if my mum finds out? Must study hard now!

2. Am i fit to be in the next exco for SMUBE? *I wondered now*

3. Is my slides okay for audit?

4. Still doing MA project? When can i finished them?

5. 2 more months to final exams? Am i prepared for it?

What is the most bimbotic thing i do?

2008-10-18T15:21:00.004+08:00

Well, this week was simply making me feel so bimbo.

Firstly, i went to print my notes at the printing area but then instead of clicking on the print button, i click on the delete button on the screen. Why? That was because the delete button is red in colour and simply attracted my attention.. Damm stupid of me!!!

Why did i say it is the most bimbotic thing?

This is because i went back to re-print my documents and then to the printing machine. What happen next was that i did the same stupid thing again... Twice in a row !!! I really don't know why i am like that

And then later that day, i recorded my show with my mandarin, a 1 hour show. When i wanted to edit the show, i accidentally "deleted" the 1 hour show i am supposed to edit because i thought that the show was the last week one. Damm shitty !!! I was damm apologetic and had to say million times sorry to philip. I really din do it on purpose lol!!! Then, i have to stayed till 9pm in studio to record our show again!!! Damm damm *i am cursing now*

Am i obsessed with the "delete" button? I am not sure what is wrong with me and the "delete" Button!!!!!

Bimbotic things i have ever done

2008-10-17T01:26:00.001+08:00

I did something which made me the ultimate bimbo of the week !!

Stay tuned for what i have to say !!

The outing with the gals

2008-10-07T00:00:00.003+08:00

It has been ages since i met my Secondary Friends. I was always very busy with my school work and busy doing other things. Time for them was really limited and i appreciated whatever time i could find. They were very sweet batch of friends which we called ourselves "I-Promise" Gang. It was just some funny name which we find. Till now, most of them are either working or studying in SIM.

We went out for a dinner at Wheelock place and ate super a lot of food. Like fish and chips and Bacon Wrapped chicken Leg. The most amazing food is the chocolate durian cake. I have never tasted it before. It was quite nice and the 7 of us finished it within like 20 mins. Super fast and tasty.

Happy birthday Lynette.

Now, 7th october 2008, it is You mei birthday !!! Going to sms her now !!! hehehehe

Some nice photos

Nette and Lorraine

Me and Nette

Joyce and Nette

The batch of girls !!! All wearing dresses except me wearing a skirt !! :)

The one million dollar question

2008-10-06T23:41:00.003+08:00

Many people are asking me how did i celebrate my birthday. Well, 1st October was a holiday for me after so long. No class on that day and only can stay at home to sleep. (But i got make-up class on 2 weekends, Damm Sian!!!)

Of course, i din spend my day sleeping. I went out with my family to pray as it was an important day for the Buddhist as well. So, after we went to pray, we headed to Honda showroom to see like the new cars then to VIVO CITY to shop for a while. Guess what i was shopping for - I shopped for Toys !! My nephews were celebrating like Children's Day :) Then ate at the high-class swensen and the servings was super a lot. Enough to feed two cows. But, i had a good treat from my family.

My brother also gave me something but was a 50 Dollar note without a red packet (he said he cannot find !!!) So Cui !! But, i know he wanted to give me a present but money will be a more practical one !!!

My nephews are super cute !!

Adyen don't like to take photos

My brother at Toyrus

Nice fishes

Emo? Mimo? Memo?

2008-09-27T23:57:00.002+08:00

today was a bit emotional for me. Things weren't as smooth-sailing as i expected. I expected to lead a lonely and peaceful life but now, i doubt it is possible. Today, i think i cried like 2 times and maybe it was just my tears machine in me which is trying to make sure that it works. Okokokay !! I think i am talking rubbish.

I have been very emotional and easily affected by what is happening in my life. Why?

My study is something i am worried about and it is not that i don't study but i just cannot absorb or i don't have the mood. My parents are not trusting me and believe that i am flirting around. But i am not !!!

I am very serious with my work. Meeting are important and he is important as well.

There is a lot of things which is affecting me now.
1. My study - i am not doing that well - far away from my expectations
2. Shld i be in a relationship? - My parents are giving me lots of pressure and forcing me to do something which i dun want to. What should i do? I really don't know
3. Am i useless? AM i a lousy? --> i guess this is me going to my next phase of life.

A girl turning 20 is having future plans or wanting to try on things. However, given the current circumstances (Strong supervision and control from my mum), not confidence about whether i can try them !!!

No mood

2008-09-21T01:49:00.002+08:00

I wasn't in the mood to blog but i have to !!

She just left Singapore. Who is she? She is Claudia Koh. I was not really sad about it but just felt that times flies. She just came back and now she is leaving.

The few of us went to send her off at 11.29pm. This time we waited till she entered the departure area. It was quite sad but i think i am used to it that she is leaving for UK. Last few months was Sydney and now UK.

Claudia: You better be back soon !!! we wait for you for 3 months

So bored and don't feel like doing work. Got lots of quiz coming up but just don't have the mood.

Shld i sleep or continue to study? *thinking very hard*

Live Radio @ Concourse

2008-09-03T23:26:00.002+08:00

Today was the LIVE RADIO for Campus radio at the concourse and it was my first time hosting a show with AMIE with so many people looking at me. It was super nervous for me and i don't really know what to talk about. Although i am speaking in mandarin, i feel that no one is actually listen to me and AMIE talking. At some point of time, just feel that we are talking to the AIR. Since today was the first time outdoor, i was super nervous until i can't eat anything. I was certainly aware that anything i eat at that point of time, i will just vomit out.

SO BETTER NOT WASTE FOOD AND MONEY.

I was very nervous and AMIE had to remind me constantly to relax. The first time i spoke into the mic, i nearly stabbed myself with a knife. It was not something i normally do in the studio because those times where i did my recordings, there was NO ONE there but now everyone was looking. Then the only word that came into my mind was 'RELAX'. I kept moving around and playing with my hair, then i thought of what my prof said in MPW. When you are nervous, you tend to move or even play with your hair. Sometime, YOU may not be aware of it. After which, i kept my hands to myself or simply held my best friend, THE MIC.

This was indeed my first time Deejaying in school and it was a great experience. I will want to do it more often as it will be a good exposure for me. This is my passion and i will want to do the best out of it.

As many of you know, SMU is well-known for its diverse culture as well as something called Class participation. In some modules, Class participation, known as Class Part, has a certain amount of weightage on your final grade. This encourages students to speak up but the disadvantage is that it is very subjective and hard to valuate.

Today, i finally speak up in my audit class because i prepared for the case study and i managed to give some relevant points. Usually, i won't read up beforehand but now i realize that it is important to do so and NECESSARY for the desired grade you aim for.

Also, i need to study hard because i got a quiz for MA next wednesday. HOW? I haven complete it.... "CUI CUI"

Quoting from MR Anthony chang: "We need to study smart now."

wHAT i have done this weekend?

2008-08-31T23:32:00.001+08:00

ITP Camp is finally over. The 2 days 1 night camp was held in school with games related to the department available in SMU Broadcast & Entertainment. We had stations games in school and the food chain games as our night activities. Then on Saturday, we had the similar “Amazing race games” and then the dressing competition for the Final night. It was very fun going around school and also going to Raffles City to search for the hidden suspect. Although the turnout rate was not very high, but the freshmen did enjoyed themselves. I did not stay for the Dinner and left around 7plus. *Ate lots of food during the camp* No wonder Yih huat called me ‘FEI MEI’. Heheh J

Yih huat really super nice and everytime saves me. Must ask Anthony to treat him liao !!! Yih huat, YOU ROCKZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ………………………..

After which, I headed to Claudia’s house for her farewell party. She is leaving again on 20 September. Everytime someone leave, I will be quite sad and emo. I went to her house with a special guest with me and Liyana brought along a special guest as well. We ate pizza and watched the movie “SEX and the CITY”

The most fun and happening game is the game called ‘MAO’. This game was introduced to us by Claudia and during the game, I really feel like killing or even stabbing her with a knife. This game started with no rule and you are supposed to spot the rules. OMG, it really irritated a few of us. Only Youmei knows what the game is about. *APPLAUSE*

Now I need to study for my MPW. REALLY GOT LOTS OF READINGS. Listening to Campus radio and the songs played are really good. *Listening to the song “Dancing in the moonlight”*

NEED Some motivation from someone !!! I want to go gym and workout.

One week is over

2008-08-24T15:39:00.003+08:00

BE rocks !! We got 330 freshmen interested in joining BE. I realise that i really love BE and i want to do something for them !!! hehehe !!!

BE is going to have an info session at SCREme on 25th August 2008, 7pm.

So, do join us if you want to have fun and know more about BE as well. There will be lots of fun.

Also, tune in to SMUBE @ www.smube.com --> Click on the red button

My show will be broadcasting on Tuesday 9pm. So must listen to me and Philip !!!

FTB is over

2008-08-24T15:27:00.006+08:00

FTB is finally over and School has just started. One week in school still seem like holiday to me. Having to be in the same class as Lynette, my camp buddy, Tham Tham, my best friend, Anthony Zheng Jiaru,my boss, Chiu yan, FTB mate, is so fun. I am so excited to be with them in the same class lol.

Me And Lynette

In Carey's Car

Me And Lynette (in the nice background)

Maria, Angie & Cindy @ Matriculation

Anthony & Cindy

FTB Group Photos

WE'RE THE CHAMPIONS !!!

2008-08-06T01:34:00.003+08:00

I am super energetic after being pissed by someone. I feel like a lousy welfare head and i really cannot wait for FTB to finish. I felt that i am always the last person to get the information and they expected me to do something about it. I dun feel tat i belong there. I dun feel like telling you all what happen to me. Just Don't ask !!

BUT BUT BUT I think i am going to miss angie, my camp buddy (Lynette), Tracy and my brothers (Nayem and the rest) in camp lol. The hardship and the many months of planning we had is going to end in 7 days. Kind of scaring me !!! I really hope that even after FTB, we can stay together as friends.

I am just worried that once FTB finishes, we are not going to meet up anymore. hOW hOW ??

One thing i want to tell all of you is that

WE'RE THE CHAMPIONS !!!

2008-08-06T01:19:00.002+08:00

My Summer Holiday is coming to an end. Finally, i completed my CSP project called Project Summer On Sand and midway to complete this year Freshmen Teambuilding Camp. And, i think i am nt mentally prepared for the new semster. A lot of things are still not done and i need to complete by this week so that i can go for camp peacefully.

This summer has been rather hectic for me although my job assignment had been done. I suddenly missed the days at work and my nice nice and cutie cutie colleague. I bet they miss my loud hailer and also my cheerful smile. So sad that i cannot make it for the BBQ tml. I really want to go but i alrdy got something planned beforehand. I really miss all of you if you guys are reading my blog.

Talking about myself, i recently met a guy thru Freshmen Teambuilding Camp and he is part of the committee. He is kind of a nice person to talk to and he really care for me a lot. Not sure if i am doing the right thing now. Hopefully, i can decide on what i should do. Give it a try? or Just forget about it?

HAPPI BIRTHDAY, MY DARLING Joyce Guo !!! I am so sorry that i missed your birthday this time becos i was in camp. I really wanted to be there for you but i can't !!!

A song for you: (One Republic - Apologize)

I know It's Too Late to Apologise
It's too late
And i am so sorry not to be there
Sorry !!!

heheheheh !!! Not a good song writer !!!!

Last day at work

2008-07-21T19:07:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow is my last day at work. I really miss the days i spent here. Although it is very tiring but then i really enjoy staying late at work. The nights i spent with my colleagues were filled with laughters and joys. This kind of feeling, i will never forget and i really hope that i can come back for internship.

To all my colleagues, you all rock. You all are the reason why i am staying behind till the very last day. I was thinking of leaving because i am too tired but the reason why i am still around is ............ OF COURSE is all of you !!! I met nice people whenever i go. Love all of you !!! Meet up for Kbox and i promise i will not snatch the mics away. Jane Tian will be singing!! *jane jane in the house*

I AM SO CHILDISH

2008-07-03T00:48:00.002+08:00

Today, i did something really childish and unreasonable until he is pissed about it. I left work and headed back to school. The meeting was really making me angry because the meeting turned out really bad. What he told me thru email is really different from what we talked about today. The incident is making me hate myself becos i pushed Ivee so hard to get as many Emcess but then the results turn out to be like this. I was utterly disappointed with myself.

What is the unreasonable thing i did was??????

I was supposed to wait for my friend to finish his meeting but i only waited 15 minutes because he said he will finished by then. Then, i just left and din want to call him. Just left an SMS saying "i alrdy left and you just take your time for the meeting". I am not sure why i had a sudden moment to leave. Then, about 14 minutes after i left the place, he called and ran to where i was to meet me. I was still very angry and moody but i dun know why. :0

Now, i am reflecting about it and it is really stupid of me. I think i was just wanting to know how much he care about me. To my surprise, i think he really do care about me. But, But.............

Break my records

2008-07-02T00:09:00.003+08:00

I am breaking my own record to type so many emails within a day. I think about 20 since morning. Super a lot. This week is super hectic as i am very busy trying to work and also trying to manage my school work. Everything came very last minute and finally understand why people also say plan in advance.

Honestly, i am mentally and physically drained out. I am typing emails non-stop and rushing back to school after work to have meeting. My colleagues think that i am too stressed and suggested that i should rest. Today is super moody for me and i din want to meet anyone. I WANTED TO BE A LONER. I went back home alone and walk aimlessly. My journey was accompanied by my very own PSP.

I need some sleep !!!! *Shouting out loud*

Claudia, my best friend is finally back for her holidays. We can go and eat supper together. heheheh. Sorry that i can't meet you at the airport. I have to attend an meeting in school. Let's go out and celebrate all your birthdays together lol.

PS: wAiting for the right time

Facebook is super powerful

2008-06-26T01:27:00.002+08:00

Wow, i just realize tt people do look at my blog like YI huat, the kung fu panda. If you want to spread something, you can use facebook to do it. It is super effective. I managed to get immediate reply from my baobei after i left her a message on her wall. Also, when my status changed, everyone is super curious about it. Hehehehe *Not going to say anything*

Today was a busy day. I made mistakes at work and really demoralized me a bit. I din feel like talking becos i am too tired n facing in a dilemma. I Know my colleagues are very concerned about me and they really felt tt i was a different person today. Super moody and emo !!
After work, i had to rush down to Eunos to meet my JC friends and like normal school days, we gossips a lot. We went for some welcome session on Networking business which impressed me by the way they persuade people. If i am alone, i will definitely be brainwashed by them. Super impression. The attraction of all will be the income generated n it is the fastest track to be rich. However, lots of determination and perseverance are important elements for such business builder to have.

I went home at about 11 plus and then i called Terrence Tham and tok for about 45 mins or so. Ever since i got into uni, i really din have time to have long chat with my friends and today i managed to.

Now, i wonder if i had done anything for BE. I realize tt i am a super slacking director and i am quite worried tt i can't be a good leader. Who can help me?

PS: Working tml N I am going for bowling with my company friends. Super fun !!! yeah yeah !!

What happen to me?

2008-06-23T01:21:00.002+08:00

I think everyone shld have know about the funny incident that happen to me recently. I was having high fever for 4 days and went to see 3 doctors before i fully recovered. The first doctor that i went to diagnose and suspect that i might have early stage of appendicitis and recommended me to admit to A & E immediately. This really shocked my family and friends were like very worried and keep scaring me tt i might die from it. In the end, i din go to A & E and slept at home till the next day. The reason why i din go to A & E was that i don't believe in the diagnosis and decided to go for a chinese physician and he says that i was just too heaty. But then after i ate his medicine., my conditions became worst and fever almost reached 39.0 degree. It was damm scary n i decided to head back to my family doctor. He said that there was too many illness and he didn't specified what sickness i was suffering. He simply gave me 7 different types of medicine which almost killed me cos all the medicine makes me sleepy.

All the 3 different doctors gave me different diagnosis but the most common thing among them was that they are very fierce towards me cos i think they feel that i shld rest but i insist on doing work. hahahha.. * i am really a workaholic*

Mock camp for FTB is over and now i am having 2 weeks break but but but i am still working. I think i am kind of emotionally attached to my company and don't bear to leave the place. Shld be working till 4 july officially but i am thinking of staying behind. My Colleague are super nice to me and treat me like their kid. *very happi it and it was my pleasure knowing them*

Recently, i watched kung Fu panda n i think that panda, poo, really looks like my friend, YI HUAT. heheh :) *hope he din see this*

Lots of things are happening around me and it is making me confused.

PS: Claudia, the gals know about it alrdy but don't talk about it yet. I am still trying to sort things our in my mind. Let's me think for a while and i will tell you what has happen or had happen. So, come back soon and i can discuss things with all of you. I need suggestions from you all.

Pei Mun: I have emailed my friend to find a job for you but not sure if he did email you. My company has stopped finding temp staff. So sorry about it.

Angie: Rest WELL

Lynette Chua: Enjoy yourself in Bangkok !!!!!!!

WWhat have i been doing?

2008-06-04T00:22:00.002+08:00

I finally went to KBOX to sing but i just realize that i can't that well anymore !! This is the cause of studying too much. I also finished my mandarin DJ training but there is more in-depth training in these couples of months. Deejaying is super fun but the technique required is a lot more. Now, i can't speak fluent Mandarin because i have lost touched of speaking mandarin outside. My Language is in the middle of no way --> not good in English as well as Mandarin. Feel so useless though ................

I am currently in deep shit becos i realize that i not longer have anytime left for my family and i know it is my fault. I lose track of all the special dates and all i did was just going to school for camp and blah blah blah.

Recently, my mum is damm angry with us becos other than going back school, my office hours also increase becos of the increased in workload. Many of my colleagues are leaving and their work have to be split among us !!! IT is killing me !!!

Now, i dun even have time to surf net and reply email. So busy lol !!!

You will never imagine that i have going back later and later because my department is having tough times now. And i left office at 10pm today !! Feeling super tired. When is Claudia coming back? I need help because i am growing fatter and i need motivation to lose weight !!

My home is quite near to seragoon so someone (this someone is Claudia) can fetch me home when we go out late !! yah

Anyone with accounting background and can start work asap. Please contact me

PS: PLEASE PLEASE go SPAM the email with your "wishes" at iamawishingstar@gmail.com using your hotmail/gmail/or whatever email accounts you have! Title just have the word "wish" will do, or variations of it.

Where have i been to?

2008-05-29T18:07:00.003+08:00

Past few days, I have been unreachable. But, now i am back.

You must be wondering what i have been doing so far. Well, i have been damm busy with FTB preparation. My whole weekend was spent in school as i got the Faci Training as well as my CCA thingy (known as the BE game night). By the time i went for my BE game night, i am super tired and really dun feel like talking to anyone. One other thing which cause my mood to be so bad was the food vendor i catered for the training. The food i got really does not look like 3 dollar to me. Then, i started scolding the vendor then such lousy quality is really unacceptable and i threatened him that i will not pay him (as if i will do it). Many people were damm afraid of me and know of my sudden bad mood. They also panic and tried to cheer me up. My Vice chairperson, Angie, was damm scared cos she was beside me when i scolded the vendor. She walked away becos she was scared. Now, i realized that when i am serious and angry, i can be SCARY. Hahahha.. Thank god, on Sunday, he at least gave me a better quality food but definitely not up to my standard.

This week is damm hectic. The reason is that i have lots of deadlines to meet for my FTB merchandise and my health is getting worst. BAD HEADACHE DUE to lack of sleep!!! Damm bad lolx !!! I know about the shipping constraint and have to confirm the order by this week. Well, i think i still benefit from this as i managed to have a good relationship with the vendor and she is really a nice lady. This is what i called as NETWORKING LOLX. Well, i am hoping and praying that i will be less busy next week so i can spend more time with my family. Currently, i have been eating dinner at around 11.30am and it is really making me fat !! I cabnnot take it anymore.

Today, i finally can go home and reply lots of email and draft out my SOP for my CCA. And most importantly, i can eat dinner at the correct timing. hahahhahah :)

It's Friday !!!

2008-05-23T22:18:00.001+08:00

Heyo,

I am in a meeting so i dun feel like blogging !!! So must wait a few more days lolx !!!

Specially written for Claudia Koh

Tiring week

2008-05-22T12:44:00.005+08:00

I GOT IT. I GOT IT. I GOT IT. Finally, Claudia's precious postcards reached me ! I am so happy that i got a mail. Thanks claudia. Never forget the times we had together.

Well, The retreat i went to was an informal one as i was running here and there to attend different meetings for different events. But, everything turned out well and went smoothly. I am so impressed by how the group bonded by the games we played as a team. I organized like night walk in SMU campus (Does not sound fun ! But i think they are more closer than before), Celebrity hat. Celebrity hat is damm funny and from this game, i realise team pie=3.1415.... does not watch TV lol. Becos the celebrity was 'xiang yun' and the guy describe as 'supermarket' (game rule: use one word to describe the celebrity). Damm funny lol... Everyone has lots of fun. Thanks to Tey and Ingrid for helping me!!!

This week is damm busy lol. Becos i have to rush back to school to settle the camp merchandise and i fall sick. The doctor says it is just too stressed and think i shld rest more although i told him i sleep a lot lol. Haiz, i am still under medication and shld be okay cos i WENT TO GYM TO workouts. GYM cure all my illness !!! :)

My weekend is occupied by FTB because of the facilitators training but i have no regret becos i choose to take up the role. I heard lots of shocking news this few days (in exact 1 damm shocking one). Haiz, i can't believe that will happen.

PS: Going back to work !!! Sian Sian !!!

Help me !!!

2008-05-14T00:47:00.002+08:00

Hey guys,

I am going for a camp this coming Friday 16 May 2008. Don't ask me why i got so many camps. I have to tell you all that i only cleared 2 out of 7 camps lol. I can hear people asking how come so many? Aren't you sick of camp? Well, i am quite but i got no choice. My commitment level in school is super high until i feel so scared. Apart from working during office hours, i have CCA Training which i have to do it, lot of meeting to go for and work to do too. All this are really killing me and someone ask me why i am working so hard. I did ask myself this question but i really don't know. Why must i stress myself up? Why i can't simple enjoy my holidays by just taking up 1 event. Currently, i got 4 events on hand - FTB, Project on Sand, Convocation, BE. And what's more is that i am working. So many things to cope and i wonder i will be alive in July. My mother is damm worried about me becos she thinks that i may break down and i think i will too. A lot of help was given to me but something really need to be done by myself.

Oh my god, i really wish that there are more mini Cindy so that i can cope all my things. Claudia, if you are around, then you can scold me and advise me. Now, i am taking up all the events and putting a lot of pressure on myself until i simply eat and sleep to forget them.

PS: i need to go gym to destress. HELP??? SOS???

FTB Training RUN 1

2008-05-04T23:59:00.001+08:00

Esmond is missing in the photos !!! HAhaha.. I REALLY HAVE LOTS OF FUN !!!

Outing

2008-05-04T00:15:00.004+08:00

Today i went to Toy R us with Terrence, Galvin, Da shu and Rachel to find the ben 10 toys. I can't find the toys online and really lazy to take a picture. But, my nephew really like it a lot until he just wore it to sleep. I think i really got no life and my life is sold to either SMUBE or SMU lol. Really feel that i am not leading a proper life now. Even Saturday i have to head back school for training which less than 3 person came. How pathetic can it be? I prepare for them and see how many people actually come liao !!! I was quite angry about it but it is okay now. Also, i have a thrashing session with Antiqah, Brian and Kit to come out with a proper structure for radio side and we finally done it !!!!

Now, we have to start to do other works lol.

Tell you my schedule for next week:
1. Monday 7.30pm (after work): CIP meeting
2. Tuesday (FREE-day for me) : Head home after work or maybe meeting Amie to settle the proposal for our event
3. Wednesday after 7.30pm: FTB merchandise meeting with the manufacturer
4. Thursday 7.30pm: Meeting Terrence, Da shu and rachel to go gym to work out (i need this desperately becos i am going to break down soon if i dun destress soon)
5. Friday 7.30pm: FTB meeting

I am so stressed lol !!! What can i do next ?? i need to prioritize now !!!

Some random photos

2008-05-03T00:32:00.000+08:00

I found some random photos for Live radio lol !!! Check this out !!!!

Just came back from camp

2008-05-02T16:01:00.004+08:00

Hey peeps, I just came back from the senior facilitator/org comm training camp. The camp was held in school. The camp is damm fun with lots of teambuilding activity and full of laughter and joy. The most funny is to about Zaki and Stanley 's laughter. Rachel definitely mimic stanley rather well. The photos are in my facebook, i think !!! Let me briefly tell you the interesting thing happen during camp.

This camp turned 15 strangers to become friends and also a team. From this camp, we see how people from different character and different personality bond together with just a common goal in mind. The sense of conviction and passion to do it together has shocked many people.

What i gain from this camp? I got 41 mosquito bites and trust me, i counted them !!!! :) I got to know some other people whom i dun really know and definitely made quite a few nice people especially my camp buddy, Lynette aka Toilet buddy. The last day, i was too tired that i kept laughing like someone who does not need alcohol to get high. I laughed non-stop till i cried lol. Andrew was so amazed about this and tot that my laughter can only be controlled by his ultimate remote control.. hahah.. i think i am just too high and crazy lol.. He gave me a nickname, "ELMO". Everyone in the camp thinks that i am like a mother who care for them... Now i need to ponder for a moment to think if this is really the case.

I went to downtown east new shopping mall and it was really nice but the hong kong cafe there, is really bad. Expensive and not nice at all.. Met my Primary school friend while queneing up for the ferris wheel. If you don't know, there is a small ferris wheel in the downtown east shopping mall and it is really nice but not a romantic place for couples. I guess it is only suitable for family. I sat in the ferris wheel with my cousin and nephew. Took quite a few photos but cannot upload now using my office computer.

Haiz!!! I got nothing to do in the office lol !!!!! Can someone help me ???

One week at my new workplace

2008-04-25T18:10:00.003+08:00

Finally, Friday has arrived and i have worked for a week alrdy. Where i work? I Work in Bona vista science park. This job was a good exposure for me becos i get to learn an accounting software called SAP. "I feel good to learn something hahahahahahahahhahaha"

A good thing about this job is that i no need to wear formal and most of the time i am chatting online or checking my school email !!!! Damm Damm....

The workload was not heavy at all. [I wonder why they employ me :( ] Anyway, i am done with my work and now i am blogging lol !! So relaxed rite? Hahaha.. Everyday i just arrive at 8.30, but my starting time is 9am. The office is always empty when i reached lol.. Why so early? Becos i have to hop on to my sister car (All Thanks to moving into a new house !!!)

Next week, i am not coming to work becos i have a school camp and just realized that it is a stay-over camp (So dumb of me !!!)

Friday supposed to be a day for me to rest but i have to head back school to have a dinner meeting with my senior... (Can someone pity my situation now??) Saturday also have to go back for exco meeting !!! Haiz !!!

I got my grade back for Comm and TWC. Quite sad about it cos i studied for TWC paper but i score very badly... Sob sob !!!! Feel like crying now !!!!

Okay, It's time to knock off and head for my meeting !!!

Oops, before i forget !!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WENQI.. WE WILL CELEBRATE AFTER YOUMEI FINISHED HER EXAMS LOLZ.....

Blogging time

2008-04-16T00:07:00.002+08:00

okok, now is the time for me to blog cos i am so irritated by myself. No matter how hard i try to study, it is still bad.. My effort was going down the drain! The ultimate question i am asking myself is that whether i see myself as an accountant 3 years from now. This question is haunting me after 1 year in school. 96% of school time is over and left about 4 days before my misery comes. Today, my accounting paper was killer and simply feel like stabbing myself with a 'sharp' knife. What's more is that today was raining damm heavily and I forget to bring umbrella.. *God is indeed playing a trick on me.. *Then, i have to spend money to take cab back.* Don't think i am rich cos i am not !!! Actually, i reAlly hope i got a time machine and go back to JC1 where i simple play and play and never study hard. Urm, now university is so different and i am all by myself. I am independent but not as smart as the people in my school..

This semester is damm 'cui' becos i foresee that My GPA will fall drastically and i cannot apply for double-degree and a scholarship to support myself. okokay.. i think i am nagging too much !!!

Still have to study for management science which i have more confidence but then unforeseeable things do happen to me recently and always shocked me to death :(

I got no time to take photos of my new hse but i will invite all of you guys over !! Have to tell you that it is not as big as you might think!! *miss to be an eastern though*

My brother is taking his final final exams in NTU and in 2 weeks time, he declares himself as 'unemployed graduates' becos until now, he still cannot get a job. He has been sighing for many days and i really don't know how to comfort him but simply change the subject of our conversation when he starts. (I think he really very frustrated but i still go and nag my trivial problem to him !!! I think i should shut up and keep it to myself.... *HAIZ*) Can someone give me some ideas?

Memory

2008-04-15T00:22:00.000+08:00

The gals !!!

Some photos to reminisce the past !!!

Saturday

2008-04-07T00:46:00.003+08:00

This week is my study week but i got some many things to do.. Mugging especially!!!
Just want to update some photos ..

'Sotong' Girl

2008-04-04T23:29:00.002+08:00

Everyone shld have seen my nick that 'i am not longer an eastern'. Yes, that's right. I moved from Pasir Ris To Yio Chu Kang. I no longer can be 'going home' buddy with liyana lolx !!! Liyana was so sad abt it and i also.. Anyway, let me tell you something about my new hse. IT IS damm BIG but no as grand as compared to claudia's hse. The point here is that my hse is damm 'wulu'. I need to take a 15 mins ride (The bus frequency is about 20 mins) and there is time where i have to wait abot 1/2 hr. And then I have to walk about 20 mins before i reached my hse. Imagine that you r walking into a 'wulu' estate and that's how i feel now.. I really can't afford to take cab often and it is time for me to seize a 'driving license'. Damm important now!!!!

Anyway, i am a blurred sotong for this week. First day of going back to my new hse, i have to consult Rachel and DA SHU 'YI HUI' and they definitely provided me credible direction which allows me to find my way home.. But really thanked them a lot..

And then today, i took the bus back and becos i was too tired, i felt asleep in the bus and when i woke up, i tot i missed my stop and hurried alighted the bus. But to my dismay, i actually alighted 2 stops earlier. The place is very dark and 'wulu' and i have to flag for a cab. So stupid to spend $3.60 back lol.. Waste money!!!!

Today 4/4 is my brother birthday and tml is kelv cen's birthday. I wish you guys happy birthday and don't be so stressed over exams. CHILL!!!!!!!!!

We celebrate his birthday with a cake, KFC and Pizza.. I still left quite a bit of food in my hse's fringe lol.. Cos my mummy ordered a lot but we simply can't finished all.. HAIZ.. The cake from 4 season was very soft and fresh (you pppl shld try it)

PS: Go and listen to the song: CLosing time and Green day(time of your life) --> very nice song which i heard from my LTB party today. We had our official last lesson of year 1 and the party was fun and full of food.

I am still studying

2008-03-24T03:29:00.002+08:00

I am so bored now.. That's why i am blogging. Haiz, now it is 3.30am and i am still studying Financial accounting (FA). I want to sleep but i got so many things to do. 1 presentation, 1 test and 2 assignments to complete by this week. And got a lot of meeting to attend. I think i got at least 5 meetings to go. I can show you my schedule...........

1. Monday 1045am (interview for LTB) ,11am (Meeting with Ken ho), Lesson at 12 to 3.15pm, Go to admin block to settle some matters at 4pm, then have to go studio to do the playlist for bthe rest of the week, then 7pm got FA meeting. (have to wake up at 8.30am and i am still awake)

2. Tuesday (lesson at 8am + FA presentation), Live radio meeting at 1pm, LTB meeting at 7pm (not confirmed yet)

3. Wednesday: Lesson at 9.30 to 3.30, Then Live radio

4. Thursday: LTB meeting (whole day)

5. LTB lesson at 12, then FA test at 4 - 5.30pm, MS( management science) meeting at 6 then got 2 meeting clashed with one another --> TWC(technology and world change) meeting at 8pm N FTB meeting at 7.30pm (i haven decided which one to go)

Haiz... This may seems to be hectic and the worst thing is i haven started to do my Ltb assigment which is due like this Friday.

Now, i am busy studying FA and i only studied 2 chapt out of 14. die die i am damm screwed.
I can foresee that my GPA for this semester will drop like hell.. Can someone save me ?? I need to mug (Can time just stop right now for me??)

I just started to pack my things into boxes and it is really a lot. Make me so frustrated and screamed at my mummy (now she is damm mad at me !!! She simply ignored my presence !!). WTH ??? I din mean to throw my temper at her. I am moving hse like in one week time .. haiz.. Sob sob i am so sad...

Liyana: Don't be sad. Your dad will be back in 1 week. You shld be sad for me. I am leaving away from Pasir Ris in 1 week time... hahahah Smile :)

PS: Listening to yes 933 fm: the song sung by the xin guang NO 2 is not bad... Make me feel like sleeping...

I want to complain !!!!

2008-03-19T08:42:00.004+08:00

Hey peeps, now it is the time to 'blog' !!! I want to complain ..........................................

This morning, i was in the train and supposed to catch a short nap before coming to school. But, i am horrified and disturbed by a 'pig' . This man aged ard 40 plus had been snoring like non-stop. The whole cabin was filled with a noise which never end until he reached City hall. I dun understand how he can snore so loud. Now, i am so tired in the class and listening to my prof toking about the exam. Damm tired !!!!

Negative markings ?? What that?? Meaning taking marks out of the paper !!! Wow, prof says there is no negative markings lol.. that's great !!!!

What i want to talk about?? So many things have happened to me recently and i dun know how to write. Finally, i tok my eye candy that he is my eye candy and i haven't seen him in the train for ages. Is he hiding from me ?? I miss him !!! One last thing, i am very confused with something which i need to confess.

Now, i am finally the director of my dept by there is so many things which i dun know at all. My boss seems to be ignoring me which simply pissed me off. "I just want to talk to him, Am i really so irritating that makes you simply ignore my existence? " Can you not do this to me?

Something i feel like asking myself, am i so useless or am i just a director by namE??

Anyone want to go to marine square with me before 31 March 2008? I need to go and buy a slippers..

Till now, i am able to fit into the BE's life...I met a few lao po (kit, Amie and Ingrin), my dear (atiqah) and my best friend (Terrance- we share secrets together). These people are my friends in BE. Without all of them, i dun think BE will be fun for me.. Miss and Love ya

Youmei, dun be pissed by your partner. Project works sucks and claudia and liyana will agree with what i say !!! hahahah.. CHILL LOLX

PS: I GOT SO MANY PROJECTS, REPORTS, REFLECTIONS AND PRESENTATIONS TO PREPARE . hOW AM I GOING TO FINISH? sTILL GOT 3 MORE WEEKS TO FINAL EXAM !!! dIE LIAO LOL :(

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Things cannot be worse than how i feel now

2008-03-05T10:02:00.002+08:00

Things cannot get worst than how i feel now. My GPA is suffering at this moment now. Just got back my assignment for COMM (management communication), and it is very very bad.. Bad does not mean i din get an A but it is really bad. I felt like crying due to the fact that i am de-proving(reverse meaning of improving) .. This really sucks !!! i am so hopeless and lousy... HAIZ.. no confidence to study
And what's more? i got an individual presentation for Comm in week 12... And i need to be a storyteller.. How can i be one? Weilun ask me to tell about the penguin story and maybe i will do it ... hahahah... But i need my dear Claudia to vet my speech ?? Can ?? hahahah

My CCA BE AGM is finally over and i am in the exco taking the position of director of AVTS? So you must be wondering what is AVTS? "i am the most important person in campus radio (many people is telling me this) hahah" It stands for audio, visual and technology support ... Erm something which many says suit me !!!! hahahah... My boss, Shah, said that i am quiet and always in the recording studio (is it true?? Really?? I tot library was my second home?? Maybe now it should be Studio :) After this AGM, it simply means that i need to do more 'fun' work... hahah.. See how i can use my innovation ideas to change the processes in BE lol (i am having my TWC class and prof is toking about innovation!!) i need to apply what i learn in class to my life (blah blah blah, i am talking nonsense)

Kit chan (a singer?? NOT She my friend): Don't be so sad !!! i support you all the way.. okok Director .. Anything to do?? Just assigned to brian ... hahahahah just kidding

Way to go... 5 more weeks to freedom or maybe i do not have any freedom when i step into here..

Claudia: let communicate thru blog.. hahah
Youmei: i am reading your blog .. hahah .. so interesting

Claudia

2008-02-28T02:38:00.002+08:00

260208: Claudia koh is finally making her way to Sydney to study medicine. All the gals were there to send her off. I felt very sad and also happy at the same time. This is making me more emotional and tears started dropping. Until now, i still cannot balance my feeling. Feel like meeting her like the usual Thursday. She gave me a hug which i will never forget. Remember all the gals and look at the video to make yourself laugh at all the dumb things we did and all the sentosa trips we went together. Sorry youmei, i should have written your name correctly. Telling everyone 'it is YOUMEI and not umei' ha ah ah a..... Everyone is going overseas to study or having internships there(toking about rebecca, my cousin(linda) and MITCH) .. I also want to go lol!!! haiz !!!

I don't know what happen but it seems like i am making everyone angry about me.. Is it my faults?? But i think most prob the problem lies on me ... Sorry to those who i have mistreated you or made you angry.. Forgive me pls..

Now i am having my mid-term break but still got a lot of projects to complete. And what else, i am moving house soon. To somewhere far,big and lonely...

Gals: Claudia may be far away but we still have to go out and tok in MSN. hahahah.. Our friendship must last forever.. Rmb that we share secrets together.. habhahah

To claudia: This week we din head down to AWWA becos they have some events happening this Thursday. So sad without you around.

Gong Xi Fa Cai

2008-02-06T10:51:00.000+08:00

Happy new year everyone !!! i am having lesson on Wednesday, the eve of chinese new year. Oh MY!!!!! I think i also got a group meeting on saturday lol!!!! (third day of chinese new year) !!! Indeed, this is SMU life !!! *all SMU students know this*

Pictures of memories

My LTB

2008-01-30T14:50:00.000+08:00

MY LTB MATE

Saturday

2008-01-29T14:37:00.000+08:00

Saturday i went to do volunteering work with Claudia. What i do? I only teach the kids with special needs badminton which is a form of therapy for the kids. This is a very good way to exercise. I was quite afraid to interact with the kids as they are very shy. They feel that they are quite inferior. But, after 30 minutes, they warm up and really had a lot of fun. I am going down again this coming saturday. After the volunteering, me and Claudia went to Tampines to shop and wait for Liyana for Lunch. Eat at the noodle store again!!!! (umei, you know where) i had a lot of feeling and thoughts after that session !!!! They need help and we should help. Fortunate people like us must distribute our help to those who need it !!!! Join me !!!!

Looking at our happy faces

Friday!!!

2008-01-25T18:42:00.000+08:00

Mood swing again !!! i am so easily affected by songs !!! I LOVE CAO GE!!!

Today i had my LTB lesson and the topic was on traits and ethics. Prof asks us to find one of my good friend to write 3 of my strengths and weakness. So i asked Claudia to do it for me!!! When i saw the email, guess what she wrote for me !!!

3 strengths:

1. hardworking

2. good-listener

3. able to see people of who they really are( at first i have negative view of this strength i have but i guess claudia thinks that i am people who doesn't judge someone by his looks--> which is true)

3 Weaknesses:

1. lethagic

2. give up easily when things go wrong (NOW it's true that i am facing this problem becos i am quite emo nowadays)

3. Do not make friend readily( is it true??? )

Afterwhich, we had our own group review on one another!! I am the winner of the most dedicated member of the team !!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

I Wonder what are my true strengths and weaknesses !!! i do not regard myself as a good team leader but sometime i am fear of speaking out??? Why ??? I guess i can't take rejection and i am QUITE SHY *i BELIEVE THIS*

YES !!!!!

2008-01-24T18:00:00.000+08:00

The first step for my LTB project is finally completed. We found our beneficiary!!!! YES!!! The

first visitation is definitely an eye-opener to me !! These kids look normal but just that they

require different forms of attention. They are really cute and fun!!! I am looking forward to the

next visitation where i can interact with them more!!!

My group sat on Roy N Russel CARS to go to the place. Everything is going very smoothly. LTB

is not as bad as i tot!!!!!

Good luck for your SAT test, NETTE !!!! To all of my friends having tests and examinations,

GOOD LUCK !!!! And JIA YOU!!!!

PS: No one can cheer me up!!! I have to stand up myself... *telling myself* "Cindy, you better

stand up from that fall" JIA YOU!!!!!

WEEK 3

2008-01-23T10:01:00.000+08:00

'Good job' *patting on my own shoulder* I survive thru two weeks of school… But have not been

listening in lecture and doing my tons and tons of assignments. ‘No mood to study at all’.. My

nephew just comes to this world on 20 January 2008. He is so cute and many say that he looks

like his brother, Adyen. He is so small and I dun dare to carry him. I scared that I may break his

bone. *So tiny* Hahahha!!!!!!!!! He has a side dimple (I think is on the left side of his face) and so

chubby. He is 59 cm long and his weight is about 3.9. (Rather fat rite????) haha

This semester, I met a lot of new friends (My LTB mates, FA mates, TWC mates). At first, I

really don’t know how to get along with them. BUT now, i guess I am more comfortable working

with them!!!! I am looking forward to my LTB projects!!!! MET Another Joyce!!!!!

I MISS ALL THE JOYCES & My BEST FRIENDS(You know who you are)!!!!

PS: I am in the TWC (technology and word change) Class!!!!! *Slacking very hard*

First week is over

2008-01-14T23:09:00.000+08:00

First week of class is finally over... But the worst thing is happening again!!! Projects and meeting are occupying all my time.. Assignments are also piling up!!! The first week of class was okay but just that i have to adjust my physical clock to suit the school life. Life was so simple until school actually starts.. During holidays, most of time i do was just slacking but indeed it had slow down my brain.. My brain cannot work as fast as i tot it should be. hahaha!!!!

Some thoughts and feelings to share:
I have a new eye-candy!!!! (i'm kidding!!!)
I am not ready for being loved or to love anyone!!! (i'm serious)
IS there a love root growing in your heart? If yes, where is the seeds of this love plant? If not, how can you love anyone???

The Moments of 2007

2008-01-02T20:37:00.000+08:00

The saddest moment in 07 was when…

I had to part with my friends and get into a new environment. This year was the most tiring year as I have to experience the hardest thing in life. I have to be in a new university with new faces and new challenges. Back to school life after 8 months was definitely hard for me. I think it will be hard for the guys in NS now!!!! This may seems to be easy for some people but of course it is not for me. Life is full of uncertainty. We, humans, have to work hard to excel and get what they aim for. All my friends are in different universities and Claudia is going overseas to study. Of course, I am really happy for her to experience something which I will never get to. But, deep in my heart, I am still very sad that she is going off. Haiz….

Friendship is part and parcel of everyone’s life. TREASURE

The most relieved moment in 07 was when...

I finished my first semester in SMU. Finally, I get to enjoy my holiday which is only a few more days left. The first semester was tough becos I am new to the teaching methods. Everyone in school is super hardworking. The only thing I can tell my friends is that I am mugging very hard in the school library and most of the time, I am in the library. This is really a sad story for a new uni-grad. Hahhahhah…

Secret moment of 2007….

Happy mugging with my friends-kit, amie, chiu yan, shichang- in the library. I guess these people are my mugging partners.

I’m most touched when...

My friends in SMU actually remember my birthday and celebrate it in school with me!!! They bought me a balloon and made me carry it around!! Quite embarrassing but also touched about it … I LOVE You Guys.

Also, not forgetting my lovers in EVSS… You guys always celebrate my birthday with lots of phototaking and laughters.. I MISS U Guys… Thanks for everything… [[ Must get me something from Taiwain ar? Rebz ]]

The Happiest time!

The happiest time is when I go out with all my friends. Joyce, lynette and the rest, I want to go shopping with all of you.. [[ as long as there is no night life, I am fine about it ]] must ask me out lol… Movie also can!!! But my curfew to get home before 1 am is still effective.. So have to take note about it!!! Hahahhaha…

During my holiday, I get to go shopping with some of my friends and found my favourite dress…. Love shopping with all of you !!! [[ who are they? umei, wenqi, yana, blaudia and phoebe lol ]]

Crazy girl dreams about 萧敬腾

2007-12-28T16:04:00.000+08:00

Crazy girl dreams about萧敬腾

I want to post some videos but I wonder why it does not work at all.. Anyway, Christmas was super boring for me becos of my swollen lips. IT’s Super Red and Thick. I also don’t know what happen to me! I hope it can recover very quickly. My slimming plan for the holidays have failed becos I am simply to lazy to jog everyday and I always wake up at around 2 plus in the afternoon. Almost half of the day is gone becos I sleep too much.. I guess this is why my nickname is ‘xiao zhu’. I think I am a bit crazy about this singer called 萧敬腾。 And I think everybody will laugh at my dream and to be more real, please visualize it while reading!!! I dreamt about him yesterday. We happened to be having the same swimming classes and every girl in the class is super crazy about him. The first class was supposed to be normal but I did something embarrassed as to wear the wrong swimsuit and got scolded by the coach. The most embarrassing part is that he is just behind me and laughing at me. I thought this will confirm damage the image of me. Then I just left the class with the others laughing at me super loud. Then during the second session of the class, he just came in and sat beside me. He just introduce himself and the funniest thing is that he say this, “that girl seems to like me a lot and 对我上下其手。” He asked if it is okay for him to stand beside me later. Of course, in my dream, I say no problem and we become friends. Guess what happen next………………………

I woke up becos I need the loo. Super unbelievable and impossible! I was laughing at myself being so crazy and funny. Hahahhahahahha!!!

Monday Blue

2007-12-17T16:05:00.000+08:00

I bought a new handphone Nokia 6500 Classic. I trade in with my N70 for this phone but the bad new is that I lost all the information about my friends’ birthday.. Sob Sob.. I haven decided whether to use this phone or to exchange my mother N80 with my classic phone.. Which one should I choose?? Rating both phones in terms of their functions, N80 have more functions such as 5.0 megapixel camera and also radio.. The only thing bad about N80 is that it is too bulky.. Class 6500 is very slim and also very nice.. But I am afraid that the wordings and keypads are too small for my mother to see cos my mother has bad eyesight.. I am so confused on what to do… Anyway, I think I will ask my mother to choose which one she wants then I will get the one she don’t want.. That’s a great idea !!!! hahahahaha… Today I got headache and choose to stay at home to slack although I have doing it for more than 2 weeks already. Also, I finally decided to take up swimming course which cos about 30 dollars. This is becos I don’t want to be drowned… hahahaha…

My thoughts:

After one semester in SMU, I think I kind of understand why I am in SMU. I guess a person who likes to talk rubbish should enter SMU as it allows you to talk a lot and enable you to present yourself. Till now, Claudia wonders why I am enable to enter SMU cos of my bad dressing sense and also bad English. I think she is indeed skeptical on how I passed my interview. I think everyone wonders why I am in SMU and sometimes even I question myself. No one has given my answer about this but I am still happy that I listen to my family’s advice and choose SMU. I wanna prove to everyone that I can survive in SMU well. I guess this is the true cindy who always wants to prove that I can do things which others believe that I can’t. JIA you!!! Cindy!!!!

Dinner with Mr Max

2007-12-16T15:22:00.000+08:00

Finally, the gals had dinner with Mr Max.. This dinner has been bothering all of us for quite sometime and we felt quite bad to drag till so long.. And we really want to have dinner with him.. He is indeed a very fatherly person who likes to watch soccer.. Hahahha... He is also a nice person and we are able to share our thoughts with him.. He gave us a lots of advice on how to really 'survive' or even 'enjoy' uni life.... Till now, all of us seems to be very stress with uni life cos we dun know how to adapt to the new environment.. But i think after that day, we can try to find something which we love about uni life...So happy to have dinner with him.. That day was quite a tiring day for me.. i woke up at 6.30 to go to the temple to pray then after that, i went to IMM and bought an esprit shirt.. Then for lunch, i ate Fish and Co with my family.. The most unfortunate thing that happened to me is that i ate fish and Co for Dinner too... HAhahah.. i am indeed a Fish and Co fan... Then after dinner, all of us walked to the esplanade mall to eat ice-cream... We talk and joke till quite late!!! We din notice that it is nearly 11.30pm.. So happy to see Mr MAx.. (we have forgotten to take pictures with Mr Max- must remember to do it the next time)

To the gals: thank you for everything!!! i miss you

To Mr Max: our next shopping mall to conquer will be Tampines mall.. I will sms you when i find the time and date!!! it will be before Claudia leaves for Australia

Sunday-class gathering

2007-12-12T16:08:00.000+08:00

Sunday was so called a class gathering but only 11 people turn up... quite idiotic lol... But at least some people still managed to come... Anyway, the worst thing is that the guys have to rush back to book in and some have to go back and study for their test..That why, after the movie, almost half of the people went back home.. I din even managed to say hello... ohohoh i think i can say it here.. Kokboon, Mitch, Franco, Roger- Helloooooooo... How is life???

Hhahahaha.. We went to watch the movie, the Golden Compass. It is quite interesting but there is not ending.. The interesting part was the fighting scene but this part was quite short.. And about halfway thru the movie, i don't really understand what they were doing until the witch came... haha.. i guess i have to catch the second episode lol.. Nicole kidman is so pretty in the show but her acting was bad.. maybe becos her scene is quite little lol...

After the movie, we went to pizza hut to have our dinner.. We had the new menu- the Christmas special one.. and actually nothing much.. Oon kee was still hungry after that.. hahaha.. she needs more food i t-hink...

Shopping and Slacking very hard

2007-12-08T01:17:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I went to orchard Road with my JC mates- namely you mei, claudia, oon kee, liyana and phoebe. While shopping, i found the dress i wanted badly. Although it is a bit too expensive but i still bought it. I think it costs about 50 bucks but i still think that the dress worth the price. Anyway, all of us shop until our legs began to shake and break. It is super tiring until oon kee says she feels like sleeping. Super funny... I bought my cousin birthday present too... Surprisingly, i met my sister in TAKA. Super coincidence. I think this is a very rare chance.. i guess it is one of the million chances to meet her there at that time of the day. She took a day leave to buy present for Christmas. I wonder if i got one too... lalalalala.... Something more interesting is that we found out a big secret which really shocked most of us... Shopping is so fun lol...
On my way back home, i taught our dear liyana (who is studying Chinese now) a chinese proverb specially for someone we know.. "人不可貌相， 海水不可斗量” hahaha

Today is my cousin-Debbie- birthday and also my sec friend- valeria- birthday celebration.. Happy birthday to both of you!!!!!!!
Tell you all something i did today: i went to downtown east first then shifted to changi airport to drink coffee.. i had vanilla latte which tasted a bit weird.. Then we saw a sort of 'superstar' who pretended to not know us... (wanna know who, that is claris - i wonder if i spell her name correctly-) anyway the main point is that she is quite scary with so much make up on.. Have a lot of fun with my secondary school mates esp nette.. i miss all of you - joyce C, nette, Rebz(take care of yourself, dun fall sick), loong kee and lorraine (so lovin couple), zhang hong, Val, Jiamin and also deheng lol... So sad that Joyce Guo wasnt around.. Good luck for exams for those who is having tests next week or the following week.. hahahahah

PS: See u all soon.... watching witch yo-hee now......

Exam is over

2007-12-05T01:01:00.000+08:00

Finally, Examinations are over. I am now resting at home and enjoying my holiday by becoming a slacker cum lazy bum!!! I sleep for most of the time and also watch my favourite drama. Currently, i just finished watching the show X-family which my brother feels that it is super lame and no content. I guess X-family is just a show full of surprise and always making me laugh with lots of jokes.. Anyway, i guess for those who want to destress, you should watch this. [the show is super lame and funny]

Now, i am watching another Hong Kong drama called 'Tang Xin Feng Bao'. It is quite interesting if you are liked Hong Kong Drama. [ i give 4 out of 5 stars] haha.. I recommend to all of you guys.

Yesterday i was quite depressed cos i got back my BGS score. I think no matter how hard i work, i still cannot get better. I guess this is the first time i felt so lost and helpless as i felt that hard work dont usually pay off.. Haiz.. I think time will cure my 心病。

monday bluz

2007-11-19T11:27:00.000+08:00

i am now mugging in the school library.. soon this place is going to be part of my 'house'.
I reached school early to meet prof lin cos i have to clarify something with him. He is really like my father who closes his eyes to think.. hahah.. super funny when there is a sudden silent during the consultation.. haha.. Now i have to continue to mug statistics cos i only got 6 days more.. Now is the time to countdown... Stupid library is so crowded and i can't sit at my favourite place.. sob sob..

P.S. Waiting for my friends to meet me for lunch and also mugging very hard!!!!

Two more weeks

2007-11-16T11:10:00.000+08:00

Two more weeks to my half year in SMU. Life was so busy till i dun have any time to rest. Tell you something more shocking... I am going to work during my one month holiday.. hahaha!!!! i need to earn some money lol.. HAHAAH... If you want to meet me, choose the weekend... pls ppl!!!
Anyway, next week is my study week but i am still coming back to school for my grading and also consultation session. MUgger Life!!!!

What exams do i have?
- Business Law (die liao- a lot of things to mug)
- Economics ( i dun even know what i am suppose to study)
- Statistics (shld be okay)
- Analytical Skills (i guess this shld not be tested)
- BGS (Cfm B one)

Today is my last official day in school----will be Staying in School till 7 to mug with Rachel & Kit Chan (if she comes)~~~~~ hahahaha!!!

Sunday- gwen wedding

2007-11-12T13:04:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, i went to attend my friend, Gwen, wedding dinner. She is so pretty.. really admired her alot.. The newly wed couples look so loving!!! The dinner was held at expo- a restaurant known as bliss garden. The food are okay but i just too full to eat. I drank too mush red wine and really made me super dizzy. I went home with Galdys and Ronald and his girlfriend.. We sat in a taxi but the taxi was moving so quickly which made me had 'taxi sick'. I vomited out my food straight away after i got out of that cab .. hahah.. So lousy!!! That carol and Celine really drunk!! Carol was so high and keep talking nonsense.. Everyone was so worried for her.. Then Celine got headache.. Many of us are too high to see each other or maybe they are too stressed at work lol.. Kelly and me feel like sleeping.. Jenny looks fine ..Vincent looks so red .. Everyone is definitely having a different suntan!!! hahahaha..

When i was about to go home, i was worried that my mum will notice that i drank red wine.. hahah.. Dont worry, i escape from that!!!My Mum was asleep when i got home!! hahahhahahahahahah~~~

Anyway, i have two more weeks to exam!!! Way to go

2007-11-05T13:00:00.000+08:00

It has been one week since i last blog.. Last week was quite a busy week because i had my analytical skills presentation and for this week, i have to prepare for my BGS presentation. I got so many homeworks to do but i just don't know where to start. Till now, i only manage to complete the video for my BGS presentation. Now, i have to complete the following things such as Statistics HW(Due on Wed), BGS script(Due on Mon), AS assignment(Due on Wed), Economics compilation(due on wed), AW essay(Research paper-Due on Sat), Read articles for AS lesson on Wed and business law reading (due on tues).. So many works to do rite ? Anyway, today i am going to be stuck in school to prepare for my BGS presentation on Wed. Hope that i can endure through this week...........

PS: I am having my statistics lesson when i am blogging.. This is because he is teaching simple linear regression which i don't understand at all!!!!
Examinations are coming in 3 weeks time... Feel like vomiting!!!!!

Kbox in class??

2007-10-29T12:30:00.000+08:00

ahhahh.. that day me and kit was in our economics class and feeling super bored.. So we came out with this song !! Recall the rhythm from the song 明天也要作伴 by 锦绣二重唱

Chorus:
Cindy & kit 也要作伴
也要疯了
不管 market 是怎么样
只要课一上完
我们就要
和 prof 说 bye bye

Mr yeow's wedding

2007-10-27T18:05:00.000+08:00

Today i went to attend Mr yeow's wedding.. Mrs yeow is so pretty lol.. The ceremony was a very touching and sentimental one.. This is my first time attending such a wedding.. Everyone is so happy for them.. Also, i met joanne. It was a long while since i catch up with her.. We shld really meet up sometime...After that, i went to marina square with inderpal, ALi and vanessa. We supposed to go bowling but there was a competition going on which spoiled our plan... So, we headed to the Arcade -played time cruise and the 'hitting' game(cannot rmb the name).. It was really fun!!! Inderpal, Vanessa and Ali: Dun forget our date!!!- dinner together -

Then, while me and Vanessa were on the train, we feel that the whole council should really spend a day together - like going to sentosa for gathering or something!!! We think that NAtional Day will be a good day for us to gather.. What do you guys think???

It has been a long time since i met the council.. I was thinking like maybe in 5 to 10years time, we might be attending our fellow friends wedding.. This is super scary and gives us a signal that we are getting old.. The age of 20 is really scary!!!!!

I just realize that my friends do read on my blog.. Guys, i will update more often and rmb to write me a message.. Miss ya

Mid-term is over

2007-10-20T13:43:00.000+08:00

Oh gosh, mid-term is finally over.. but it is very terrible.. I got business law in the morning and right after that i have my economics paper.. It is totally blank for me when i saw the paper.. Why is economics so hard to understand?? Economics is the worst paper i ever have for this term.. I finally realise that i have to start mugging again.. I did not mug a lot which cause me to not understand what the stupid paper is asking for.. The funny thing is that the total mark for economic paper is 380. I bet my prof realli like big number.. Oh gosh, i think i really have to study and study like hell.. There is a big question in my brain now!!! "why is it that the people who write notes and listen in class have no confidence about the test??" HAHAHAH...i am so demoralised and tired now cos i slept at 4.30am. Power Rite??? hahahah .... Yeah, i am going to eat lunch with kit.. hahah for destress purposes... So happy !!!

Week 9 - Wednesday

2007-10-17T18:27:00.000+08:00

I survive thru my day today.. i got analytical skills lesson from 0830 to 1000 then at 1000, i had to go to the studio to upload songs ... then At 1215, my English workshop started till 3.15 pm.. The prof was the same one i had for my ELW class. She is super nice and the point is that she rmb my name ... ~hahhaha.. Now, i am having my BGS lesson lol.. (not listening in class lol...) Everyone is not listening in class- i cant concentrate at all .. ~hahhaha... Anyway, everyone in my class is very smart lol.. no need to listen in class also can do well... I think i am losing out soon or maybe now...

I miss the days i spent in JC... Many of my friends keep telling me to look forward to the future but the future is something i am afraid of ... The change in university is too much for me to take...

Kok boon is now at Brunei !!!!

Perseverance, determination, optimistic

What things i have to do?
Study for test - Business law and economics
Send my report to William
Sleep more ~hahahha

OH MY GOD

2007-10-16T16:57:00.000+08:00

Today i had my AS meeting and Business LAw lesson and it is my first time that i did not visit the library~~~~ Also, i met Adeline on the train and starting asking about her life now.. So happy to see her!!! Anyway this is not the main point.
I am very demoralized.. How on earth am i going to score a GPA of 3.7 for this term? i only scored a B for My assignment....My grades are very sucky.. wtf....
GOsh.. i am cursing myself and feeling rather stupid.. Sometimes, i really feel like giving up myself... I am so useless... Ms Huda always admire that i have this spirit of determination in me but now-Where is the true cindy?? I cant find her anywhere neAR.

SMU is treating me "very Well".. hahha.. Projects can you stop there and not enter my email that i have to do this and that.. Can time just stop there ???
~hahhahah

What am i doing now?
Answer:i am trying to complete my Analytical skills (AS-many wont understand why i got this module) homework to do..

Mood to study

2007-10-12T16:10:00.000+08:00

IT is raining very heavily now and makes me feel like sleepy.. Oh gosh, i feel like taking a short nap now.. Yesterday, i went for Softball clinic with Rachel. I learnt some skills and practiced some throwing.. it was quite fun but but i got hurt also... hahahha

Today, my whole body is aching very badly.. so painful lol.. I think this is why we should exercise more often or else u might feel the same way as me.. ~hahaha

Now i am at home muggering for my exam next weekk... I finally find the mood to study but it is already Friday.. i wonder if i can finished studying business law and economics..

:( projects and assignments are suffocating me.. Busy life!!!!

Click 5 is coming

2007-10-10T02:04:00.000+08:00

Oh gosh!!! Click 5 is coming for Black Eyed Peas. They will be in Singapore on 22 October... I want to see them lol.... Anyway, catch them at the muttons midnight show on Wednesday 24 October... They really rock!!! If you still dun know who is Click 5, go check the net....M0ost importantly, listen to their song 'Jenny'. You wont regret it !!!!

~Blah~ Recess week is burnt ...Help me !!!!

Saturday

2007-10-08T08:56:00.000+08:00

Last Saturday, we had birthday celebration at lorraine hse. It was so fun as it had been ages since i met them. I miss them a lot. We had BBQ but i din eat much. Saturday was also lynette birthday and also my nephew's birthday. I had to rush from one place to another just like i am going for some 'GE TAI' ... hahahha.. We had a lot of fun and also photos.. We din so many things that i nearly forget which one starts first....
1. a lot of photos taking
2. eating
3. prize presentation
4. waiting for the superstar 'joycie' to come (those who are there will know what i am trying to say)
5. Girls talk
6. Dare and double dare game
7. drinking and singing .... i think there should be more...
anyway~ it was fun and more fun... They also gave me a belated birthday celebration and gave me a shirt and bag.. so happy that i can wear them to school....They are very sure that i have become a ultimate mugger to stay in the library everyday but but but i just have to say that i got no choice...

Wanna know my birthday wish:
My birthday wish is that my family can be happy and also school can be less stressed s.t i dont have depression... The third one i will keep it to myself... blah~

I also went to tampines mall to but more clothes.. i bought two pairs of shoes and also two shirts (claudia, i bought the shirt we saw at DANO)...lallalalallalla

Re: project meeting on Monday Morning but no one is here yet.. Alone in the GSR
3.23..

I am getting fatter

2007-10-03T17:39:00.000+08:00

OOps, i forget to tell you what happen during my birthday. This year is the first time i have a cake to celebrate my birthday after some many years. I finally get a 'cake'. So happy!!! my mum bought me a cake and my dad treated me to crystal Jade!!! So fat alrdy with some many stuffs in my stomach. It makes me feel bloated lolx.. Look at the cake !! so creamy with mango slices around it. hahahha!!! Also, i am quite a old-fashioned person as i request for two red eggs and noodles for my birthday.. This is a dish you have to eat during ur birthday!! try it!! It is super nice!!!

PHOTOS @ Marina Square

2007-10-02T14:11:00.001+08:00

Look!!! the photos we took at the middle of nowhere.. Hahaha.. So happy to take photos with wenqi, claudia and you mei ...

Children's day

2007-10-02T11:16:00.000+08:00

1 October - Children's day a.k.a my birthday. So happy that most of my friends remember my birthday. I receive some messages from friends who i had not seen for ages. This is so touching and shocking. Yesterday, i had my statistics test which was quite hard. I forgot to study the part on boxplot. So sad lol.. Actually, i did not expect anyone in university to give me anything and nearly i did not hope any greeting from anyone... BUT BUT BUT, my good friends ( amie, kit, richard, hanying, elphain) gave me a balloon and stalks of pink roses. Amie say: three stalks of roses represent 'i love you'. This is so sweet so them lol.. Thank you guys (million times). ~ hugz ~i really very touched by what you have done especially to amie as it was her idea.

Destress @ Marina Square

2007-09-29T11:32:00.001+08:00

Friday 28 sept 2007 was a fun day with a lot of shopping and eating. I met up with Claudia, You mei and Wenqi for a get-together. I was so happy to see them visiting me in town. I love them very much and feel like crying when i saw all of them. We went to fish and co to have our dinner after walking one whole round at Suntec. ~hahahha~
We ate a seafood, fish and chips and my favorite fries. So 'bloody' happy!!!! After which, we went to shop at Marine square. I am quite picky for clothes but but but i managed to buy a jeans and jackets that cost only 38 bulks. Super worth it!!!

I Really had a lot of fun trying to catch up with them. ^_^ 'Shop,eat,photos are make me super happy'. Although my school life is quite mundane, i was so thankful that i still got time to meet up with them... so happy.. i think it is just like i have not seen them for ages. Gosh!!! Took some photos with them but got no time to load at all.. Maybe later >>>>>> So sad that i have to say good bye to you all ~hugz~ MISS YA
Liyana: come out with me soon, i miss you also..

My statistics and BGS mid term exam are coming next week. i am becoming very stressed again with so many homework and tests. Help me!!!!
Anyway, i hope that i can have more time to meet up with my other friends as well such as joyces, rebz, val, nette, jiamin and min hui... See you guys soon.

Re: Studying in my school library now!!! Going back to studying !!!!!!!

Mugger

2007-09-26T12:09:00.000+08:00

I saw Fiona in my school. They are filming for the "hey! Gorgeous". The people on stage are 'pretty' and 'handsome'. Not that bad looking !!! hahaha.. Finally, i finished my Analytical Skills essay. Oh gosh, i slept at 3 am just to complete my work...

Now, i am at the library AGAIN. HAHAH .. Anyway, next week will be my mid-term week. Give me all the blessing that i can survive through.. i need to complain x 100 times... hahaha ...

ppl, if you want to get nice accessories, you can visit this website: http://www.secrets-shoppe.net/

<<< Going to get back to my Mugger life >>>

I am a mugger

2007-09-21T16:15:00.001+08:00

PPL, i am mugger in my school library.. Oh gosh, after my JC, i thought i can get rid the name of a mugger but i sun think so .. Hahahha.. Mugger cindy want to tell everyone that i want to sleep now !!! ^ pigsound ^..

Anyway, my blog is fixed and read me before i get angry!!!

RE: reading my business law book now... So hard to understand

Life in Smu

2007-09-15T17:11:00.000+08:00

My life in SMU has changed me!! I feel that i am going to office than leading a life as a student!! Everything seems to corporatize for me to handle. This week, i just had my first major presentation which is Business Law. My legs and hands were shivering and felt so 'jelly' when i stood in front of the class. My group was the first to present and with not much experience, we just gave our opinion on the case. The class din give much opinions but the prof was asking a lot of questions that nearly scared me off.
Some of my friends ask me why i want to enter SMU and say that i will suffer because of my poor English!! I bet no one will even think that i can enter SMU. I know that i am bad but i din make an effort to improve myself lol..

This week is just the fourth week of school and you can see that our school library is full of year 1 students mugging!! isn't is too much of stress??? Oh gosh, i can't believe what i see lol..

My body clock has changed.. i am now used to sleep at ard 4 am then wake up at 6.45am for my morning lesson.(superwomen rite??) This is the life i am leading now.. Every Sat is just a day for me to sleep and finished up my Homework.. Screaming(NO LIFE)

birthday party

2007-08-05T00:31:00.000+08:00

Today i celebrated my nephew birthday. He is now 2 year-old. HE is super cute and no one dare say that he is not. My mother cooks bee hoon and curry chicken. It is super nice but just too much for me to consume. My cousin and i went to swim and use the sauna. It was so fun and new to me. My nephew birthday cake is super high and quite
different from the traditional one. I show you the photos tml then..

Debbie: Thank for sharing your problems to me. Pls do not hesitant to share your problem. All oF us meant good for you. take care and let's swim together again. I like your company.. hahaha

Linda: How come you never come? How can you do this to me?? We haven seen each other for quite long.